And so it has ended.
This morning, I was moved by a challenge to pray for someone in my life whom I have marginalized, someone I may not have treated as an equal.
In biblical terms, this would be the lepers, the prostitutes, the tax collectors, but this is not to be in my life.
It's none other than my beloved of the past 3 years plus
I realised, that I've been marginalizing him, treating him as a pest sometimes, pushing him to a corner, further and further away from my life.
Despite all the love that he's showered upon me,
Despite all the care that he's never once failed to show me;
I am nothing but a black hole
and I quote Tropic Thunder 'He's just like a White dwarf, heading towards a Black hole'
I've drained him dry of love, sucked him into a void of hopelessness and despair.

If I were a product, I would've definitely been Made In China...A Relationship With Me would be Something that looks promising, Simple to Use (No, I'm not cheap,if that's what you're thinking); But after a while, The consumer finds out the hard way, that I'm toxic and defective.
This defect entails the ...defective ability to love and care for my partner, and a self defence mechanism even the Jewish can't simulate.

To My Unfortunate Victim(s),
I am sorry for never being able to shower you with the affection I should, and allowing myself to fall completely in love , or making the choice of changing myself to meet your expectations.

I love you, but I don't know how to show it; Or in my selfish warped up world, I just don't want to.
I want to apologize, but the only ones who'll see it are the moderators of blogspot.com

We've decided to amicably end it, and you've claimed that it's the Difference in Character that is preventing this from working out.
Thank you for providing me with an alibi...